It's Been A Long Time Since....

Wow!

It's been ages since I last wrote, just haven't had the time nor the drive for a while. The last time I wrote I was really, really pissed off, so to put a point across I wrote that angry letter.
So yeah, so much has been changing in my life, moving onward and upward.

I have found my soul mate, his name is Gary, and I am so deeply in love that I am, more often than not, at a loss for words. I met him by chance in January, in a dive of a club called Club X.
Since then, it's been a beautiful journey, every day I discover something new about him, and in the process I am working through a lot of my own issues.
He is so supportive of me, how he puts up with me and my ranting I don't know, but I do know that he deserves some kind of medal, or a at least a Valium.

These days I'm living in a small, but lovely, apartment in Cardiff city center with Gary and all is good within those four walls. I have left hairdressing, I needed a change, exactly to what I don't know, so in the mean time I'm just gonna do anything which pays the most for the least hours.
I tried my hand at direct sales and although I found it to be good money (some weeks I would take home £400) the hours are way too long, working in excess of 60 hours a week. It was getting me down, and I was tired all the time and barely got to see Gary unless I stayed up till 4am every night to at least spend some time with him.
Anyways, Gary's sister in law had a baby girl, they've named her Jessica, she's so cute, so because of the new arrival, Gary and I shall be travelling to fair Liverpool, where I shall have the pleasure of meeting his entire family. I've already spoken to his mother and she is such a lovely woman, she sent us our first moving in present and is always there for us. I can't wait to have a bottle of wine with her! Then come September I shall be whisking Gary off to Gibraltar for National Day, he'll get to meet my family, but more importantly they will be able to meet him, the one person whom has made me the happiest I have ever been.

This is some way scares me, I haven't been back to Gib since Christmas, and that time of my life was really traumatic so I left hating the place and wishing never to go back. It has happened to me before, but this last time in went beyond just hating the place but putting up with it for my families sake, this last time I wouldn't even go back to see my family. Thankfully my friend Tony has offered for us to stay in his place in La Linea (city adjacent to Gibraltar in Spain) so at least I won't have the stress of being in Gibraltar every day!
This National Day should be a good one anyway, a lot of people whom I haven't seen in years are going back to Gib and we're all gonna meet up, like old times.

Talking about old times, the weekend before last was my 21st birthday! It was an absolutely brilliant day. Gary took me out shopping and bought me a fantastic pair of Vans which I adore, he then took me to this Italian restaurant called 'Giovanni's' and the food there was so beautifully cooked, and everyone there was actually Italian! That night I ended up in a house party, got very drunk, can't remember half of it, but what I do know is that I'm blessed to be living the life I do!

On another note, to my shame I have fallen victim to reality television and am glued every Saturday to 'Dance X'. It has gotten to the point where I cancel plans or just don't make any just because I don't want to miss it! Although to be fair it does have some sort of artistic angle to it in some abstract, retarded way. That is my only television vice though, day time television and Jeremy Kyle will never filter through my sensitive corneas. I would much rather insert my penis in a blender while riding a 14 inch butt plug singing 'Against all odds' in a high pitched Hispanic accent.
That is something I was thinking about the other day, has television really ruined my generation? I have noticed that of my former class mates, none of them ever showed any interest in reading or anything even remotely mentally taxing. Maybe it wasn't television but leaking radiation from the incinerator across the bay! But I do find it alarming, the amount of youths just wasting away, pickled in Sambuca and listening to some half intelligible South American singing about how much he likes gasoline!

Talking about music, I have really fallen in love with Sia, her album 'Color The Small One' has found it's place into my heart, it's the sort of music that you can either sit down and analyze of sit back and relax to. I love the melodies, the instrument, but most of all her voice. There is something so innocent, but still wise about her voice. Sort of Joanna Newsom but less juvenile.

"We've argued by the baggage claim
We've accepted and we've laid blame
We've drank Sangthip in monsoonal rain
We've felt separate and felt the same

Oh yes the butterflies are still there"

Anyhooty, so much more to write, but my lapflop is running low on battery, so will carry on when I get it plugged in (That's the shitty thing about taking it to a cafe, no plugs!)

Kyle x