Tears On The Inside

You know, it's weird... watching a person struggle to live even though they are pumped full of all sorts of drugs to sedate them, and then watching them slowly slip away into death, into peace.
I watched Angelita slip away, she was so serene, all night she had been gasping for air, gasping for life, and then at about 3:30am she took her last breaths, of course this struck us all in the room, how can anyone understand why such a good, kind, person had to suffer so much.
Something happened a little later on, i was sitting outside with my mother, having a cigarette, was about 4:30am, the sky seemed clear, and then out of the blue, it started raining, as though the heavens where crying for our loss, emulating our tears. I thought this because last year, when YaYo died the same thing happened, it was sunny, and warm all through the day while we were all in the mortuary, then when it came time for the funeral, the sky clouded up, and it started to drizzle... the angels shed the tears we no longer had the energy to shed, the were grieving with us.

"A brief candle; both ends burning
An endless mile; a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last."

I still have tears to cry, and i still have life to live, and in those tears and in my life i have left, i shall remember you.XX

Angelita, Yayo! xx